Two women share their stories of addiction and recovery.
Original Source: self.com
When Lindsey Lee was 14 years old, she was hanging out at her boyfriend’s house and mentioned that she was feeling upset. A few years earlier, Lindsey’s mother had been murdered, and it threw her down a well of grief, confusion, and pain.
Her boyfriend had recently undergone surgery, and had a prescription for opioid painkillers. He offered her one as a way to take the edge off. Within a few years, she was taking 100 per day.
“When I took that first one, it made me realize I never had to feel pain again unless I wanted to,” Lindsey, now 23, tells SELF. “Whenever I felt bad, all I had to do was take a pill and then I’d feel better. And I always wanted to feel better.”
By age 16, she was hacking into her dad’s bank account and skimming money. She used six different drug dealers to make sure she could get enough pills, and forged signatures on $50,000 worth of checks to pay them. Her addiction was costing about $600 per day, and it was all she did—Lindsey didn’t eat, didn’t shower, didn’t answer the phone. She just took opioids and then drifted away.