It’s been five and a half years since that first meeting, and nowadays my life doesn’t revolve as much around my sober community. In fact, the more time that passes, the fewer meetings I feel I need. But now that I’ve stopped reaching out to substances to make me feel good, I have to live with the thoughts that made being in the present moment so uncomfortable in the first place.
I’ve been fortunate enough to have my new way of life become just something I do. I eat lunch, I try get eight hours of sleep, I don’t drink, I walk my spoiled rescue dog four times a day. It gets easier with time.